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of one who hopes.

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  • Young Again (the poem)

    Young Again (the poem)

    For several years, a poem simmered deep inside me. I can’t remember the exact moment the words entered my consciousness, but I recall repeating them over and over to myself when doing the farm chores and elsewhere.

    I shall be young again…I shall be young again...

    Becoming a dad is, without a doubt, one of the most life-altering moments for most men. It shifts your perspective of life in many ways.

    As one of my church brothers stated in a conversation recently “we live vicariously through our children”.

    It’s true.

    Through the sensory experiences of the little ones, we are drawn back to our own childhood. We remember the wonder, the enchantment, the imagination, the innocence. And in a small way, we experience it again through them.

    And we mourn. Both the scars of our own coming to age, along with the certainty that they too will walk that same old well-worn path out of Eden.

    When our third baby was born, I finally took the time and mustered the discipline to wrestle those simmering thoughts to the confines of written word. If it blesses you, feel free to share.

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    Young Again

    A hopeful lament of a father’s heart

    Cradled with tenderness, nourished by love,
    Hedged in and protected from below and above.
    Unmarred by rejection and oblivious to harm,
    He connects with each face– and is instantly charmed.

    Barefoot exuberance, lights in her eyes;
    Skipping and singing– gasps of surprise.
    Frizzled-hair happiness, strawberry-stained cheeks,
    Innocent reverie– pure joy when she speaks.

    Eye-opening wonderment– There’s a world to explore 
    He’s drinking in knowledge and begging for more.
    How vast is our galaxy? How deep is the sea?
    His pursuit of the universe– unbridled and free.

    But the joy that I feel, as each milestone you pass,
    Is mingled with sadness– life travels too fast.
    For Eden recedes with each calendar page,
    And infancy’s innocence dwindles with age.

    Into the shadows of self you will creep;
    You’ll hide from the Voice, and you’ll curl up and weep.
    Then cowering with shame in this old Adam’s world, 
    You’ll be driven from paradise by a cherubim sword.

    I pray that the wilderness leads you to Him;
    That in stumbling and knocking, you’ll find refuge from sin.
    That the spark in your soul not succumb to the night,
    For the burden He offers is somber– yet light.

    This living and dying, as we know it today,
    Whispers a future that will take us away
    Where the garden stays green, and the connections we’ve had
    Will then be much deeper – and infinitely wide.

    I shall be young again! Oh, I shall be safe–
    Enveloped in Love’s eternal embrace.
    I shall be young again– yes, I shall adore
    The face of my Savior– I’ll slumber secure. 

    I shall be young again, I shall be free;
    Running through clover fields – skipping with glee.
    Yes, I shall be young again, childhood restored;
    My questions all answered in a clean, fresh world.

    Let the wave of Redemption swallow up all decay.
    May these pangs of corruption give birth to new day!
    Deliver creation– as You promised of old.
    Let me be young again, Oh– let forever unfold!

    – Jared G. Martin
    2024 A.D.

  • Fairlight

    Fairlight

    We were a typical starry-eyed newlywed couple dreaming about the future.

    In a hazy honeymoon memory, I recall leaning against a hotel balcony alongside my lovely new wife, in the darkness somewhere on the east coast of Florida, discussing baby names.

    My wife has a different memory; one that apparently got wiped from my internal hard drive. She says there was one name I wouldn’t tell her. It was rather uncommon and I reckon I was a bit sensitive about blurting it out. She needed to guess it. So, I made her play the legendary little “hang-man” game while we drove the interstate.

    Well, the poor little man got hung good and proper, and there still remained blank spaces of unguessed letters. When I did finally tell my wife the name I had in mind, she tried to let me down gently.

    “Aww…” she paused….”I don’t know… maybe if we get a horse someday you can name her that.” She knew I liked horses.

    Not exactly a ringing endorsement. But what can I say? I’ve vetoed a lot more baby names in my fathering career than she ever has!

    As a teenager I read Katherine Marshall’s best-selling novel Christy. Google tells me that since it’s 1967 publication, the book has sold over 10 million copies, so I guess I wasn’t the only one who found it to be an engrossing read.

    Christy would be categorized as “historical fiction”, inspired by the real-life experiences of the author’s mother.

    The narrative follows a 19 year old girl named Christy Huddleston who leaves her home to go teach school in a poor isolated Appalachian community.

    As I remember, Catherine Marshall, through this story, expertly draws out the deep, complicated nature of human relationships and experiences. It doesn’t hold back from the real, the raw, the ambiguities that a lesser writer might shrink from.

    Birth, growth, suffering, hope, joy, dreams, friendship and death…it’s all there in Christy. The final pages left me in a blubbering mess. I wept somewhere behind a locked door, knowing how difficult it would be to explain to an inquiring family member the cause for my tears.

    There was a female character in the story named Fairlight. I loved everything about the name. The sound it made on my tongue, the simple yet picturesque meaning, the way it spoke to my soul’s imagination. And I thought to myself, If I ever have a little girl of my own, I want to name her Fairlight.

    Many years have passed. Somewhere along the way, my wonderful woman warmed up to the name…and even started to like it!

    “I think you’ll have your Fairlight someday”, she would tell me. I hardly dared to hope. God had already blessed us with two boys and a girl. Maybe Fairlight would only live in my dreams and Catherine Marshall’s best-selling novel.

    I had thought about “Fairlight” so long, it was as if a little person were already attached to her name in some mysterious way. Like an old friend, who I hadn’t yet had a chance to meet.

    When the ultrasound showed our 4th child to be a girl, my heart surged. God willing, I would meet my Fairlight!

    Over the past months this little poem gestated in my heart, along with our growing unborn child. And this Thanksgiving weekend, as I rock my little Fairlight, I will sing it to her:

    Oh Fairlight, I have known you 
    As a dreamer knows a dream
    Where light and shadows mingle
    Mid’st the grey of in-between

    Your name has long been tapping
    Like a drumbeat on my heart;
    Your visage long since waiting
    For its fullness to impart

    How silently and skillfully 
    You’re crafted in the dark;
    A spirit-flesh mosaic
    From a supernatural spark.

    Your days have all been written
    By the Master of the plan,
    Your thoughts already precious
    To the One who holds your hand

    Seems I’ve loved you now, my daughter,
    For a hundred years or more –
    Old time friends who’ve never spoken;
    Strangers who have met before 

    Now with breathless expectation
    At the window of the womb
    I stand, eager to embrace you-
    Oh my Fairlight, welcome home!