Writing & Thought

of one who hopes.

Tag: creation

  • Recycled Stardust

    Recycled Stardust

    Last week, I took my family to visit the Smithsonian Air & Space Museum near our nation’s capital.

    We walked through the huge hangars which are packed with real historical pieces of mankind’s great 20th century invention: air travel and space exploration.

    They have it all there at the Steven F. Udvar-Hazy Center- From the crude piecemeal constructions of early flight to the incredible sleek design of the SR-71 Blackbird, that military marvel which could fly 16 miles high and outrun a bullet.

    Maybe the most impressive of all is the massive space shuttle Discovery now confined to a lowly building of concrete and steel, after her exciting career which consisted of 39 space missions over the span of 27 years. By retirement, she had accumulated just under 150 million miles on her odometer.

    We finished up our visit at the Airbus IMAX theater, which itself is a testament to human ingenuity. The screen is 86 feet wide and towers 6 stories high, immersing the viewer in heart-thumping sights and sounds.

    DEEP SKY, one of their latest feature films, takes you behind the scenes in the design, building and deploying of NASA’s James Webb space telescope (aka JWST).

    The James Webb space telescope is a gargantuan accomplishment of human engineering and technology. It orbits the sun one million miles away from earth and captures unprecedented views of deep space through its ground-breaking INFARED technology.

    From its conception, the telescope took over 30 years to reach completion, including a major redesign in 2005 and 5 years of testing, before the final assembly began in 2019.

    A rocket launched the 10 billion dollar beauty into space on December 15, 2021 from a space port in French Guiana, South America.

    Even after launch, there was so much that could have gone wrong. One engineer explained that there were over 300 individual “single-points of failure” involved in the process of getting JWST into working order. In laymen’s terms, that means if anything went wrong at any of those 344 junctures, the amazing telescope would have become useless space junk.

    “The most complex sequence of deployments ever attempted in a single space mission.”

    It was a fascinating presentation, for sure. Some of the JWST team members teared up on camera as they described the emotional moment of launch and then the long-awaited photographs that were beamed back to earth months later.

    However, in my perspective, the most jarring part of the film were the words left unsaid. That blaring omission that you couldn’t miss. There was an elephant in the room.

    God.

    Over 20,000 of the brightest minds from 14 countries convened to invent, create, test, and deploy this marvelous irreducibly-complex machine, of which the tiniest malfunction would have totally ruined its purpose and task.

    Yet, they want me to believe that mindless, unguided processes produced the vastly more complicated biological life on our planet.

    Under the guise of “scientific exploration” the film’s true spiritual nature quickly became apparent.

    “Where did we come from?” How did the universe begin?” “Are we alone?” These questions reverberated from the massive speakers into the sparsely-filled seats of the theater.

    The NASA personnel and the producers of DEEP SKY would likely disagree with my assessment that these are questions which arise from a spiritual place in the human heart.

    “He has set eternity in their hearts” says the wise king in Ecclesiastes. “Except that no one can find out the work that God has does from the beginning to end.”

    The film continued on, showing the stunning photographs taken by JWST, that allow us to “look back into time”, to the early stages of the universe. They described “star nurseries, explosions, and colliding galaxies.

    Exploding stars, they tell us, expel carbon, hydrogen, nitrogen and the like into space. These chemicals are known as the “building blocks of life”, and therefore these supernova explosions “seed” the next generation of stars and planets, from which life will eventually form.

    Mr. Gray-Haired Bespeckled Professor man onscreen then answers the first spiritual question- where did we come from?

    The universe, he tells us, is in a never-ending cycle of birthing and dying stars. “We are all made of stardust. We are simply recycled stardust.”

    He pauses, perhaps grappling with the full philosophical implication of his statement. Then he shrugs and smiles.

    “…And that’s ok.”

    Selah.

    There it was. The conclusion of the whole matter. We are recycled stardust.

    What it really is, however, is just recycled paganism. Who would have known that at NASA in 2025 you could hear a warmed-over version of reincarnation from the ancient eastern religions?

    If you and I are just accidental products of star explosions, then the only logical conclusion to draw is one of complete and utter nihilism.

    A devout materialist must adhere to the belief that there is no such thing as a “mind”- only a brain, derived of random stardust, firing its receptors for no apparent reason, and to no apparent end.

    Thus, all the non-material realities that every human being intrinsically knows to be important and most sought after…those things called we call love, happiness, hope, dreams, longings. These also, must have no meaning.

    Of course, deep down in, very few people actually believe this. The little whisper of eternity placed within our hearts knows it to be false.

    But if you preach the gospel of nihilism long enough, some young souls, grasping for meaning and purpose in their life, will start to believe it. And then act on it.

    We live in a culture which is suffering a real crisis of meaning. Most astute non-believers will even tell you that.

    Young men living in the basement, terminally online, sucked into a vortex of fringe message boards, dark memes, and violent video games don’t always act upon their personal meaning crisis.

    But some do. And when they do, innocent people usually die.

    Nihilism scrawls weird, cryptic, self-contradicting messages on shell casings and then goes out in attempt to create some meaning of its own. Stardust speeding up the recycling process a bit. That is all.

    Nihilism scrawls weird, cryptic, self-contradicting messages on shell casings and then goes out in attempt to create some meaning of its own.

    The film ended. Part of me wanted to spit in disgust at the screen. Another part wanted to turn around and preach Jesus to my fellow audience members.

    Those who know me won’t be surprised to learn I did neither.

    Instead, at a nearby restaurant, as we waited for our food to arrive, I put my arms around my 9 year old son and 7 year old daughter who were sitting on either side of me.

    “Children, I want you to know something. You are not recycled stardust,” I said.

    “You are sons and daughters of God.”

  • Do You Feel Small Enough?

    Do You Feel Small Enough?

    Sometimes, when I want to feel smaller than I already do, I walk outside to the night sky and look up.

    First, my eyes are distracted by the steady-moving unblinking low-orbit satellites that constantly crisscross our modern skies. Yeah, Elon, you’re pretty impressive! Mankind has taken some giant leaps, indeed.

    But I’m looking for something better.

    I’m reaching for the stars tonight. Their tiny points of light above me wink back at my smallness. Any random part of the night sky I gaze upon are myriads of swirling worlds, billions of light-years away. (or so, they tell me). Vast galaxies and suns that dwarf our own.

    I scan the horizons, which are hemmed in by hills and houses and polluted by nearby city lights in my part of the world, But I can picture in my mind our blue-green planet spinning in space. Zooming out from my own perspective, I can see my small form rapidly lost in the darkness, and the horizons being quickly expanded into the curvature of our terrestrial ball.

    The yellow blinking gridwork of human infrastructure appears as a bit of glitter sprinkled over a dark canvas. Soon earth itself is just a speck as we move outward at a speed much faster than light (for to travel at such a plodding pace would require too much time for my little mental exercise).

    Now I have escaped the little playground of our solar system and wave goodbye to Pluto (poor little ex-planet) as I dodge through the protecting Ort Cloud and make a beeline to our nearest star, Proxima Centauri, just over 25 trillion miles away.

    Then on I travel until our Milky Way galaxy looks like a little toy pinwheel thrown carelessly from a child’s hand. Next destination is its nearest Galactic neighbor, Andromeda. They tell me that travelling at the speed of light,(which is impossibly fast in reality…just ask a certain wild-haired German physicist) would take us 2.5 million years to reach Andromeda. But I’ve already arrived and am still hurtling onward. From here, the Milky Way would be just a very hazy smudge to the untrained alien eye. It’s suns, our solar system, and beautiful little earth would be invisible.

    From here I see billions of galaxies, each teeming with billions of stars and shrouded in secrets. From here, giant supernova sparkle, and colorful nebulae tower upward through incomprehensible dimensions. From here, black holes loom ominously- even light rays shuddering at the thought of entering those gaping dark doors.

    Although I’ve barely crossed the threshold of my dwelling for a proper tour of the universe, I’m ready to call it a day. I feel quite small. Actually- incredibly and distressingly insignificant.

    When I consider the heavens, the work of Your fingers, the moon and the stars which you have ordained- What is man that your are mindful of him, and the son of man that you visit him? (Psalm 8)

    Me too, David. Me too!

    Over three thousand years ago, the son of Jesse was lying on his back staring at the night sky, feeling small. When did he write this psalm? Was it on a dark hillside on the outskirts of Bethlehem with his dad’s sheep? Was it a moonless wilderness midnight, as a hunted fugitive, surrounded by his snoring group of 400 ruffians? Or was it later in life as king, at peace in Jerusalem, gazing from his rooftop palace vista?

    We moderns are often guilty of “chronological snobbery”; looking down our noses at the ignorant ancients who knew nothing of rotating planets, ort clouds, and swirling galaxies. Or did they?

    I expect the night sky in 1,000 B.C. declared the glory of God’s handiwork far louder than my polluted view does today. Whatever the case, David knew enough to know that he didn’t know much at all. What’s important however, is that David turned his feelings of smallness into the largeness of praise. He worshiped.

    What’s important however, is that David turned his feelings of smallness into the largeness of praise.

    O Lord, our Lord! How excellent is Your name in all the earth!

    A few nights ago, after being awakened in the wee hours of the morning by our two-year old climbing into bed with us, I struggled to fall back to sleep. I sipped a bit of water from our nightstand and glanced out the window. I caught my favorite constellation, the mighty Orion, resting on his side upon the Blue Ridge mountains in the east.

    Lying down again, my mind fired up a rowdy pinball game, gleefully bouncing around tomorrow’s impending conversations, stress and responsibilities. Deep sleep evaded me.

    For some reason, in that strange transitory period between wakefulness and slumber, I suddenly wondered what God’s conversation with a modern-day Job would sound like.

    You see, Job got grilled. Big time. God spoke out of the chaos and talked directly to him, which is kind of a big deal on its own merit, if you know what I mean.

    But instead of answering Job’s desperate pleas for somebody to make some sense of his suffering, God instead took him on a virtual tour of the universe, peppering him with unanswerable questions.

    “Who is this who darkens counsel by words without knowledge?” God asks. In everyday terms: Who are you to question My wisdom and authority with ignorant words?

    Prepare yourself like a man and answer! Gird your loins, Job. Buckle up!

    Many of the questions God asked Job still cannot be answered today:

    Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth? Have the gates of death been revealed to you? Can you bind the bind the cluster of Pleiades or loose the belt of Orion? Can you lift up your voice to the clouds that an abundance of water may cover you? Have you given the horse strength? Does the hawk fly by your wisdom?

    Job: [crickets]

    But one could argue that some of the questions asked by God, would have a ready answer from today’s enlightened intellectuals. For example:

    Have you entered the springs of the sea, or have you walked in search of the depths? Have you comprehended the breadth of the earth? Have you entered the treasury of the snow, or have you seen the treasury of the hail? Do you know when the time when the wild goats and deer bear young? Can you number the months they fulfill?

    Well, yes. Mankind has spent thousands of years accumulating vast knowledge of science. Our insatiable curiosity of how our universe functions, backed by the deep gnawing questions of meaning and purpose drive us to observe, research, calculate and theorize to this day.

    But under every turned rock of scientific discovery is a horde of creepy crawly questions that we just can’t seem to stamp out.

    Under every turned rock of scientific discovery is a horde of creepy crawly questions that we just can’t seem to stamp out.

    In fact, I would argue there is direct correlation between our gained knowledge and the awareness of how much we don’t know. The more you learn, the smaller you become.

    And so, the other night at 4 AM, I pictured a long line of the Enlightenment’s brightest minds, secular and religious alike, being questioned by Almighty God.

    Prepare yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer Me.

    Congratulations, Sir Isaac Newton! I heard an apple fell on your head and got you thinking. You’ve discovered the law of gravity. Now tell me- how does gravity actually work…and from where did it come from?

    [Silence]

    Mr. Einstein, step right up! I’ve heard a lot about you, and I’m expecting some brilliant answers. E=mc2. Pretty impressive! Now tell me- what is this stuff called dark matter, that “invisible glue” that holds together the galaxies? And the dark matter, that is instrumental in acceleration the expansion of the universe? Where did it come from? Where you there to help me fashion it?

    [Shrugs]

    Mr. Watson and Mr. Crick, it’s your turn. You’ve figured out that the cell is slightly more complex than the “microscopic lump of jelly-like substance” that your forefathers ascribed it to be. You’ve discovered the double-helix coil of deoxyribonucleic acid. DNA!
    Excellent! Now tell me- where were you when I designed this biological replicating marvel? Can you explain how such a fined-tuned, intricate system can begin? Put on your big boy pants and answer me!

    [Shifts feet]

    Francis Collins! You headed up the Human Genome project and successfully mapped it entirely. You discovered the longest word known to man; 3 billion letters of coded information embedded within each DNA cell of every person who has ever lived. Each one a complete instruction manual to the function and development of human life. Were you there when I wrote the code of all living things? Tell me- can you speak life into existence from inorganic and inanimate substances?

    [Bows head]

    We’ll stop there, but the list could go on and on. All of the brilliant men mentioned were instrumental in world-changing scientific discoveries. Their religious views ranged from atheist to deist to Christian. One thing is sure: their discoveries didn’t answer all our questions. If anything, they’ve uncovered many more.

    I once heard the late, sharp-witted atheist Christopher Hitchens talking about a conversation he had once with his own child, who wondered how the “Big Bang” started. His answer went something like this.

    “Picture everything that ever was and ever will be in the universe…picture all matter and all energy compressed into a small, black travel suitcase. And it’s about to burst open. That’s what happened in the Big Bang”

    Of course his child had a comeback ready: “What was outside the suitcase?”

    Hitchens gave a rare chuckle when recalling this interaction. He accurately observed that our “poverty-stricken vocabulary and poverty-stricken capacity” succumbs to the most basic analogies to describe things that we were never meant to understand. He consoled himself that he didn’t think any other parent has ever had a better answer than his, though.

    Hitchens clung to his little black suitcase until his dying breath. I’ll stick with an unfathomable God.

    Hitchens clung to his little black suitcase until his dying breath. I’ll stick with an unfathomable God.

    The voice from the whirlwind ceased, and Job cautiously raised his head.

    "Behold, I am vile; What shall I answer You? I lay my hand over my mouth. Once I have spoken, but I will not answer; Yes, twice, but I will proceed no further"
    I know that You can do everything, and that no purpose of Yours can be withheld from You
    Therefore I uttered what I did not understand, Things too wonderful for me, which I did not know.
    I have heard You by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye sees You. Therefore I abhor myself, and repent in dust and ashes."
    (Job 40 and 42)

    Do you feel small enough, yet? I do.